Do you ever try to fit in with everyone else?
Does it work?
It really never did for me, especially when I was young.
When I was a kid, we moved a lot. By the time I was 10 years old, we had moved 10 times and I had attended 3 different elementary schools in 2 states.
I was shy and tired of always being the new kid.
Plus my last name was Miracle, which didn’t help things a bit.
And unbeknownst to anyone at the time, I had ADHD.
I was a smart kid in school and got good grades, but I wasn’t so good at making friends and being in a group of kids. I was more comfortable with adults; I guess cause I was an only child.
I tried to fit in with the other kids, to look and act like them, but I always seemed to fall short.
In middle school, there was a certain jacket that was popular. I wanted the same one – to fit in.
My mom bought a similar one, but not the same one. I didn’t fit in; not quite.
When I turned 13, my aunt bought me a birthstone ring. It was beautiful and so sparkly. I used to lay my head on my desk (cause I was bored) and look deep into the stone to see it shine.
I look back on that now and I cringe. I can’t imagine what the other kids thought of me.
Have you had similar experiences?
Do they make you cringe and feel sorry for your younger self?
Or are you still having those kinds of experiences?
I don’t anymore. At least, not that I can remember.
I recognize that I’m different and I’m OK with that.
I know that I can be weird and I think that’s a fun thing. It’s not like I do it all the time.
I like my childlike behavior at times, especially when I’m with my grandson.
Those of us with ADHD are different. Our brains work differently than brains that don’t have ADHD and that’s OK.
We need to stop trying to fit in and be like everyone else, because we’re not.
I was thinking about all of this today and I realized something: